Living with the baggage

You’ve collected your fair share,

And many will not care.

For everyone’s got their own, anyone will hesitate to lay bare.

Why carry all these baggage,

How do you manage?

Living with all these memories that hold you back.

My dear, my darling…

I urge you to let it go.

Leave it on the side street and release all that weight off your shoulders.

There’s going to be moments where you’ll want to pick them back up.

“Sorry I made a mess.” You’ll declare to those who do not care.

But darling don’t turn back, don’t apologise and don’t pick your baggage back up.

But if you do pick it up…

Lay it bare and be an example.

Share, let it go again and change.

 

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Essence of loss

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It is knowing presently there is a gaping whole within you.
It is knowing you can no longer make new memories together.
It is knowing you can no longer hear their voice.
        Speak to them and have a conversation
It is knowing you can no longer feel their touch.
Knowing you have to keep on living the life you both dreamt off.
It is knowing for that moment you’ll have to face the world alone.
It is knowing you can no longer grow old together.
Milestones you’d like to share to them and yet can’t.
However, it is also…
Reliving moments and knowing you had them .
It is being thankful you shared the most precious commodity of all:
         Time.
It is sharing stories to others, the memories, laughter, lessons
         And dumb moves.
It is knowing they cared and loved you.
         Which is why for that moment you felt loss and keenly so.
Loss is natural, it may not be great but everyone has had and encounter with it.
It is neither good nor bad.
It just is.
Never easy…
But through loss we are reminded of what we have and can gain.
         Possibilities of what we can give.
         And leave when it is our time to be someone’s loss.

So with everyday you’ve got, make it count…

Clocking out of 2016!

Clocking out of 2016!

Adieu to the painful memories.
Adieu to horrible mistakes.
Adieu to missed opportunities.
And adieu to this year of ups and downs.

However, I will always remember…

Remember the good days I had with you.
Remember the conversations I had with you.
Remember the adventures I had with you.
And remember the all the memories we made together.

As we say hello to this new year, here’s what I promise you.

I promise to continually be better than who I was yesterday,
I promise to continually wear my heart on my sleeve.
I promise to always be there for you, whatever you need.
And I promise to always love you unconditionally.

This message is for everyone who shared this year with me and to those I will soon meet.

For everyone I have been with for how many years I don’t recall.
For everyone at work and at home.
For everyone who supported me.
For everyone who I met this year of whom I am glad to call my friends.

This year 2016 was full of challenges and change
This year 2016 was full of adventure.
This year 2016 was full of stress and surprises.
And this year 2016 was an amazing roller coaster ride.

I expect nothing less of 2017.
Off to bigger and better things for all of us!

Happy New Year!
Take care always, be kind and I’ll see you around!

Akini signing off for 2016! Lots of love.

xox

 

A Dance Would Do

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I found this poem while I was going through note book after note book of drafts and scattered poems and I thought I might as well share some of them here and there in the coming months.

I wrote this last year around March, I think. I’m not too sure since the dates in one of the notebooks were so random ranging from 2011 – 2015 but best guess, March 2015!

I don’t think I wrote this for anyone in particular. I believe, I wrote this because during that time I was itching to go and dance a partner dance but no one was willing to go with me. So in my frustration rather than saying it or letting people know, I wrote down a poem and here it is.

Looking Through

Alternative Perspective

Hidden away,
Underneath a mask with every passing day.
Many will not discover what makes you sway.
Many won’t know what else to say.

Under that mask,
You have taken on such a heavy task.
Carrying all that baggage,
And your mask unknowingly showing its damage.

The mask creates a shield,
Many will see and to approach they will yield.
To relinquish its hold,
One must naive enough and bold.

When it has all fallen away,
Everything else will find its way.
However this must be a chosen narrative,
To perhaps view an alternative perspective.


 

Contemplating on the words; authenticity, honesty and genuine, has had an interesting impact on my life for the past year. It has taken me on such an adventure and continues to do so. This new adventure has allowed me to understand what those three words REALLY mean, what it means for me and what it means for the people around me…